7.7.11

bittersweet.

Well, it's been a bittersweet week for myself and my husband. It's hard to complain but it's also hard not to complain. First last Friday, Adam and I found out I'm pregnant with our first child (about 5 weeks along now) which is wonderful news and also intense emotions because of all the new hormones going through me now. Then today we had to say goodbye to each other for an unknown amount of time. Germany is his destination and in a little over a week Minnesota is my stop along my way to Germany. According to the army base in Schweinfurt, Germany, there isn't adequate housing at the moment for us, so we must wait for some to open up. Which is when in turn I am allowed to travel over there and meet up with my husband. This explains all of the bittersweetness (is that a word?) of the week.

But in other news, being pregnant is something that my mind cannot yet grasp. I can't get over the excitement of it all but then I think about it and I am completely frightened of the act of giving birth but yet I'm also set on a birth plan already, --I think, this is subject to change of course. To think that there is something growing inside of me that I will love unconditionally in the future, well I already do actually, is just a foreign thought to me. But I'm welcoming the new changes to my body in this stage of pregnancy, I haven't had any serious morning sickness yet which is lovely, but then again i'm only 5 weeks along, technically I'm barely pregnant. I'm already thinking of what names i like and what I don't like, but it seems every suggestion I have to my husband he says no, which is sad and funny all at the same time. (when I hear or find one I really like I'll wait awhile to ask him what he thinks about it.)

Telling my parents was a blast, they are so incredibly excited, considering my dad is telling the whole world he's going to be a grandpa and calling my mom grandma. It's fun knowing I have such excited parents that are happy for me and excited to meet the new addition to the family in 8 or so months in Germany.

I have a whole lot of good to look forward to in this next step of my life.